Just received news that my ex is trying a maneuver in court to take away custody of the kids. He is trying to say that I am an unfit parent, and that therefore he should have the kids full time and that I should only be allowed supervised visitation with them. This is frustrating and scary for me, since the hearing date is on the 16th (in 10 days), and is a paperwork only hearing (not entirely sure of the mechanics, but the only thing the judge will see is the motion that is set before him). Especially scary is that it sets forth all sorts of ‘proof’ that I’m a bad parent, and if the judge can’t see through the thicket of lies, I may well lose my daughters.
Unfortunately, with nothing I can do about that, all I can do is soldier on with what I’m doing: school, a little fun time for Mommy, and taking care of my children as I always do. Right now the girls are fresh out of the bath, and enjoying a little fun time before bed. Occasionally they pop their heads into my room (which is right across the way from their room) and tell me what it is that they happen to be doing.
Myself, I’m taking a short break from homework (reading a collection of Robert Frost poems) to write this blog post. Sometimes just sharing a worry takes the load off your shoulders, which is why I blog and write stories and poetry. It’s all my form of catharsis.
Personal opinion: if you watch a movie, you walk out re-surrounded by your problems, all that a movie does is allow you a temporary respite for as long as it lasts. (Same goes for TV.) However, if you write it out, share it, get it out there in the world, work it out on paper, it is a much more lasting relief. It doesn’t mean the worry isn’t still there, or the pain is completely gone; all it means is that you’ve put a part of it on paper, and the burden is a little less that you have to carry.
(Don’t get me wrong, I watch movies, and enjoy them. It just doesn’t have that same relieving sensation you get from writing.)
Randomness done, enjoy your evening!